Integrity is defined as possession of firm principles: the quality of possessing and steadfastly adhering to high moral principles.

Despite the former business I was in, I did have integrity. I never forced my girls to do anything they didn't want to. I never made them have sex with anyone. I allowed them to set their own boundaries and control the pace of their own appointments. Meaning - if they didn't want to have sex with a client, they didn't have to as long as he was charmed and happy with their company. I never screwed anyone over for money, I helped my girl's out of evictions, obtain new apartments, get off drugs and paid for college tuitions. I loved them all and at the end of the day they all screwed me over. Well, most of them.

The people closest to me in my life testified against me in my "secret" grand jury indictment like a bunch of cowards. They couldn't even give me an anonymous head's up so I could protect myself. Everyone was in one this and I'm going to start posting some specifics on them and their wrongs pretty damn soon.

And the situation only got worse. When I was in jail I lost pretty much everything. I thought the few people left in my life had enough integrity and love for me to do the right thing. I cannot even tell you how wrong I was. They screwed me over every chance they got because they knew I was helpless to take care of myself.

I'm wondering where the integrity in this world has gone? Don't get me wrong, I choose those people and I know I made a huge mistake. I don't feel sorry for myself nor do I expect you to. Because I have such a big heart, I wore my rose colored glasses and saw the best in everyone despite who they really were.

I've since removed those glasses and see people for who they are. Which in itself can be scary because I have found few people have integrity. They lie, they cheat and they manipulate for their own selfish motives. I am now going through a lawsuit to try and rectify some of the wrongs that were done to me. And all I can say is that if those people operated with some integrity, some caring for someone other than themselves - they wouldn't be in this position now.

Its quite sad to wake up one day and realize everything you held to be a truth was a lie. The people you thought loved you just didn't. And even in the end they have the opportunity to right their wrongs but they don't. They are narcissistically selfish and their feelings are the only ones that matter. Someone I loved very much did some heinous things to me. In the end, this person only has themselves to blame and whatever the outcome is - they have to live with themselves and there are consequences to your actions. Even their own family was in on this plot and for that they should be ashamed.

Me- I'm happier now. And I'm happy justice is going to prevail. Its not personal anymore-its now business. I'd have to care for it to be personal and I don't. I've let the past go so I can have a happier future without bad people in my life.